"i felt your pain hidden in the vengeance plans to gentlemans wallet. they don't care like we do, do they? most men...hell all men...they start this 'change for a younger model' or whatever. i am sure men simply cannot actually love. just lust, and that only for a short time. you will find your son will be in pain for his father. and dad just won't care. peculiar, isn't it?"-gerrynan2-
This is a quote on my ex's poem. it is about me. here are my thoughts on this:
men are capable of love. yes there are a lot of shitty men out there that do play games with girls hearts. i am not this kind of guy. in this relationship, i was the one played. you dont know the whole story. you dont know why i left. the void left in me from my choice, you wouldnt understand it. i loved lauren, elaine, more than you could understand. this is something that isnt going to pass easily. there is no way you could understand my position on everything unless you asked me about it.
to think that all men are incapable of love is just a twisted perception, probably brought on from being with stupid dumb fucks that really dont care. love is a powerful emotion that not everyone can understand. love is faithfulness, trust, great joy. but love is also pain, agony, and suffering. the love i felt for her was deeper than i had ever felt. the pain i felt from what she did was too much to bear. i could never trust her again. there are always two sides to the story. i will tell you my side straight, her side is twisted so far out of perception that she believes that her reasons for my leaving are true. i left because i cant be with someone that i have to worry about sleeping with everyone behind my back then coming back to me like nothing happened. people say that love conquers all. this is not true for me. love cant conquer all. when something is so twisted and fucked sometimes that love may with stand, but that trust, the glue to a relationship, errodes. it will start to turn into a festering wound that will only get worse as time goes on. Somethings are truely just unforgiveable, at the very least unforgettable. now you have a slight understanding. dont judge me before before talking to me.